8 months & two weeks ago, my race was beginning & i was the most terrified i think i’ve ever been in my life. the thought of being in constant community & letting other people into the deepest & most wounded parts of my heart sounded like the last thing i ever wanted for myself. everything in me wanted to run away from these people who i was supposed to live with for quite some time. i went in to the race believing that i would never be able to love the people around me. that they would be weird & uninviting. that they would be more displays of the broken christianity i had experienced so much. truly i expected the worst from my squad, and i really really didn’t want to love them. i’m my head christians were only people who brought pain & judgment & condemnation. but gap c didn’t do that.
never in my life have i experienced a body of people who so clearly display what the church is supposed to look like. this squad was eager to jump into all of the growth & fire & new that Abba had for us. we fought hard to understand each other’s hearts. we’ve sought to outdo each other in honor & love. a community that just felt too good to be true. what a gift. the past 8 & 1/2 months of my life have been the sweetest, most growth filled months of my life. i’ve had the privilege of being surrounded by a community of 23 other people who live in constant joy & reverence of Abba. people who fight hard for community & choose in to each other when it’s hard & life is messy. people who walk in a culture of grace & humility. best friends who encourage you to walk in true freedom of the identity the Father has given you. people who i trust so deeply, with my whole heart.
i cannot dare to say i’ve ever loved a group of people more than them. when i think of parting from this sweet little family, my heart hurts deeply, but i also feel overjoyed. overjoyed to think of all the amazing things my friends are gonna do to impact the kingdom. i feel so so excited for the world, because 23 people who have experienced the face of God, who have learned to walk in love & grace & honor & kindness & patience & steadfastness are being released to wreak havoc on the things of this world & bring heaven to earth. the human in me is jealous that other people get to love gap c the way i have, but my soul is so excited. how lucky anyone would be to know any one of these people who have been my home for the past 9 months. i don’t know if i’ll ever be able to do gap c justice in just one blog, but one thing i know, my life has been completely changed by allowing my walls to come down. to love & be loved by the people around me.
wow this is an incredibly beautiful transformation. thanks God.
Love this so much!!
your walls have come shaking down!! this reminds me of the song “redemption rain” by jonathan david and melissa helser. check it out!
I am so overjoyed at the breath of fresh excitement that exudes from your writing! God has an incredible plan for your life. Love you so very much and am very proud of you!
Friendships are a gift from God. I’m so glad that you guys all got to grow together!
You are a sweet soul Gabby. Your impact on those who have impacted you has also been great. Your journey and now CGA is taking you to places that are continuing to form and mold you in the likeness of Christ. You are an amazing young lady and the Lord sees your heart and your desires and will fulfill them as you walk in line with his kingdom.